Is it just me or have you ever felt disappointed or maybe angry because you just know a little too much about God to act a fool? Now I’m not saying you know everything, rather I’m saying you know enough which therefore doesn’t afford you to walk around acting ignorant on how you live your life. I can count the times I have vented to my friends and said “I wish I knew less about God because then I can say or do this and that etc” and it’s often during times where I am going through a rough time in my spiritual walk and my life overall.
There are seasons of my life where if you ask me I want to act a fool, I want to go against what I know and what the word of God says then I remember, my own spirit let alone my own conscience doesn’t even allow me. Somehow the Holy Spirit always finds a way to convict me and that’s because of the word that has already been deposited in my spirit before I even get to my point of weakness. I find that in moments where I’m spiritually weak I somehow wish that God could just give me a pass on some things, I often entertain the idea of putting down my armor of faith at least until I feel like I am at a place where I can actually live in accordance to God’s word and this alone is proof that I am relying on myself as opposed to relying on God and actually believing that He has the power to keep in all seasons of life.
I will admit that in instances where I think or feel this way, my aim is usually to follow my fleshly desires which if I’m being honest doesn’t take God’s word into consideration at all but the reality is that once the word of God is hidden in your heart, it’s much harder to ignore some things. It’s not impossible but it does make it harder hence why such moments are usually the best time for me to depend on the Lord much more.
I think it’s high time we acknowledge that God has standards and that when we choose to be in Christ or rather when we choose to be in a relationship with Him, It calls for us to uphold certain standards and principles even when we don’t want to or feel like it because those standards and principles have less to do with us and more to do with who God is and what He desires of us. I for one haven’t always met the standard or upheld every principle and I fall short from time to time, however, I want us to recognize that It’s one thing to not know something and it’s another thing to know something yet go on to act like someone who doesn’t because at that point it’s no longer a matter of ignorance rather it’s a matter of disobedience. I want you to see such seasons as the Holy Spirit providing you a chance to grow your dependency on the Lord and inviting you to actually work out your salvation with fear and trembling.
