We all have insecurities and while some are more pronounced than others, this doesn’t negate the fact that we all have them. Today I want us to first ask ourselves where our insecurities stem from. A while back I realized that the two things I was insecure about most while growing up were never things that bothered me until someone else pointed them out. It’s quite sad when people take a jab at us by saying something that ends up affecting how we see ourselves. It’s always as if those things that we are meant to feel insecure about are deficiencies when in most cases it’s just people projecting their perceptions onto us and wanting us to accept them as final.
For me growing up there are two things that kids would use to put me down and it often worked. First it was my eyes, apparently my eyes being big was a problem to the kids around me, to them it didn’t scream beauty, it was more of a question of why which often spoke to the fact that big eyes aren’t as attractive. Secondly it was my voice, for some reason when I was about seven years old I had a really deep voice and I tend to think it’s because I lived with my grandma in a place where it was really cold which led to my voice being hoarse and kids would often say that I sounded like a boy. I slowly became insecure of my voice, even to this day I still have moments where I’m like ewww I don’t want to listen to myself, nevertheless I have grown to value my voice more than I did back then.
The thing is that our insecurities tend to take on a definitive role in our lives and end up crippling us more than we would want them to. It’s at that point that we must become aware that we have given other people’s voices superiority over not only our own but more so the voice of God, the one who made us to be who we are. Ultimately He is the one who gets to define us. In the word insecurity we get the word security so our insecurities essentially come to disturb our security and when we no longer feel safe about our identity we tend to withdraw and retreat instead of rise as children of God and as people who have been fashioned not only in the Image of God but also in His likeness. Our security is and ought to be found in Him because He is unchangeable which should make us secure in who we are.
Take this for example, there’s a reason why security guards are hired and are often told to survey a specific place or jurisdiction and the minute they move from that specific area they jeopardize the security of the very place that they are meant to be protecting. Therefore even for us the minute our security shifts from God, it’s in those moments that we find ourselves giving the enemy room to make his home in us through the means of our insecurities. The minute an insecure thought gets planted in your mind, it only requires you to meditate on it for a while and before you know it, your mind becomes the very garden that the enemy gets to feed on. By this time it’s usually not the voice of the enemy speaking but rather we have allowed the enemy’s voice to become our own. I want you and I to be so secure in who God is and in what He has said concerning us that every other voice becomes null and void to us.
